孔灵犀Lingxi · Gaius Kong
孔灵犀 · Lingxi Kong
某处,做自己。somewhere, being myself

活出来的就是答案。The answer is in the living.

我在不同的领域里做事,也在文字里与自己相遇——我的问题,有时交给行动,有时交给语言。而有些话语,写成诗以后才说得清;有些念头,放进现实里才知道分量。

我把写过的文字、认真做的事和还没想明白的问题都收在这里。

来了请坐一会儿,翻几页或留一句。

I work in different fields and meet myself again in writing—my questions sometimes go to action, sometimes to language. And some words become clear only in poetry; some ideas reveal their weight only when put into practice.

I keep the words I have written, the work I have taken seriously, and the questions I am still thinking through here.

Now that you’re here, stay a while, turn a few pages, or leave a line.

眼下:法学院三年级。At the moment: third year of law school.

还有一些页,正在慢慢写。Some pages are still being written.

来信请寄Write to [email protected]

第 一 章 。自序。CHAPTER 1 · Preface

我的几种笔迹A life in several scripts

我是孔灵犀,也叫 Gaius,出生于中国武汉;在哥伦比亚大学学习古典学与新闻时,语言如何塑造判断、古老的思想如何进入今天的经验,以及一个人究竟能够凭借自己的认识做些什么,逐渐成为我愿意反复追问的问题。书本使我接触到生活之外的世界,而真正动手做事,又总会把那些在书本里显得完整的答案重新打开。

如今读到法学院三年级,许多问题仍与我最初接触它们时一样切近,只是提问的方式随着经历而变化:一个人的处境怎样被别人看见,一种说法怎样获得信任,一个决定又怎样走过理解、犹疑与行动,变成此后生活的一部分;我愿意花时间走进这些细节,也愿意让自己的判断在新的经历面前继续修改。

写诗,是这些经历在我身上留下的另一种笔迹;有些感受在能够说明之前已经发生,有些意思藏在语气、停顿与没有写下的部分里,等到多年以后再读,才发现当时的自己究竟想说什么。这本笔记本也以这样的方式敞开:做过的事、读过的书、写下的文字,以及仍未想明白的部分,放在一起,慢慢显出一个人的样子。

I’m Lingxi Kong, also called Gaius, born in Wuhan, China. Studying classics and journalism at Columbia drew me toward questions I still return to: how language shapes judgment, how older thought enters present experience, and what a person can do with what he comes to understand. Books opened worlds beyond my own; practical work kept reopening answers that had seemed complete on the page.

Now in my third year of law school, I find many of those questions as immediate as ever, though experience has changed how I ask them: how someone’s circumstances become visible, how an account earns trust, and how a decision moves through understanding and hesitation into a life. I want to stay with those details, and leave my judgments open to revision.

Poetry is another handwriting left by these experiences. Meaning can wait in a pause or an unwritten line, becoming clear years later. This notebook stays open in that spirit: work, reading, writing, and unfinished thoughts, gradually taking the shape of a person.

几种笔迹,记在同一个人的生活里。Different handwriting, held in one life.

第 二 章 。新闻。CHAPTER 2 · News

茉莉花新闻网Molihua

自2011年起,我持续运营茉莉花新闻网,至今已十五年有余;这些年资讯越来越充盈,读者却未必更容易弄清一件事情:同一则消息在不同网站反复出现,可能只是同一个源头不断回响;事实、评论与政治立场混在一起,又容易使人把熟悉当成确凿,把情绪上的认同当成已经理解。茉莉花新闻网面对的,正是这样一种消息流通迅速、判断依据却常被省略的信息环境;我希望读者能够看见一条消息如何成立,也有条件在新的材料出现时,重新检验自己的结论。

新闻汇集、综合报道与公共讨论因此在这里彼此连接:转载须说明原始出处,综合报道应核对不同来源、补足背景,已经确认的事实与作者的观察、推断各自交代;材料缺失、说法冲突或报道需要更正时,这些限制也应进入读者的视野。一个人只有知道哪些内容经过核实、哪些仍待确认,才有可能在不同叙述之间作出有根据的选择,而编辑的责任,便落实在这些能够被逐项检查的细节上。

I have run Molihua since 2011, for more than fifteen years; an abundance of news does not necessarily make an event easier to understand: a claim repeated across websites may still have a single source, while facts, commentary, and political positions become entangled. I founded Molihua to address the missing grounds beneath confident judgments, so readers can examine how a report is established and reconsider their conclusions when new material appears.

Aggregation, synthesized reporting, and public discussion belong together in that work. Republications should identify their original sources; reporting should compare accounts, supply context, and distinguish confirmed facts from observation and inference. Missing material, conflicting accounts, and corrections also belong in view, because an informed judgment depends on knowing what has been checked and what remains uncertain.

第 二 章 。新闻。CHAPTER 2 · News续CONTINUED

让讨论有共同的事实,也有人能够被听见。Shared facts, and room for people to be heard.

在纽约求学时,我曾参与组织不同立场的人讨论西藏问题,并于2008年采访达赖喇嘛;这些经历使我持续追问,一场争论如何解释世界,与被争论的人实际怎样生活,究竟有着怎样的距离。无论一方的语言多么完整,记者仍应回到具体的人、文件与处境,去辨认哪些经验被概括掩盖,哪些声音尚未获得表达的机会。

我早年的文字反复谈到资讯自由、语言与独立思考,因为一个社会如何理解自身,关系到每个人怎样认识自己的权利、尊严与责任;做茉莉花,是把这份关切变成持续的编辑工作,使公共事务有材料可查,重要的争议有背景可循,受到影响的人有机会被听见。对权力的质疑与对异见的倾听,都应当能够承受事实的检验;一个新闻平台值得存在的理由,也正在于它是否使更多人获得了这样的能力。

While studying in New York, I helped organize a discussion on Tibet across different positions, and interviewed the Dalai Lama in 2008; those experiences kept me asking how an argument’s account of the world relates to the lives of the people it describes. However complete an explanation sounds, journalism must return to people, documents, and circumstances, looking for experiences obscured by generalizations and voices still unheard.

My earlier writing returned repeatedly to information, language, and independent thought, because a society’s understanding of itself shapes how people recognize their rights and responsibilities. Molihua turns that concern into continuing editorial work, making public affairs examinable and disagreement better informed. Questions directed at power and attention given to dissent should both withstand examination; a publication matters when it helps more people acquire that capacity.

让公共讨论有事实可循,也有人可以被听见。Public discussion needs facts, and people who can be heard.

第 三 章 。留学。CHAPTER 3 · Education

留学情报局LIA · Education and admissions

留学机构常以名校资源、专业经验与成功案例证明自己的价值,申请者真正需要弄清的,却是一连串可以研究的问题:哪些学校与专业适合自己,公布的数据采用什么口径,学费与生活费用怎样计算,条件和截止日期又应当去哪里核对;当这些资料被包装成机构独有的优势时,一个家庭往往很难知道,建议究竟根据什么得出,又有哪些本来可以自行比较的选择。

我创建留学情报局,是把完成这份功课所需要的资料与工具免费开放,让学生与家庭无需先购买咨询,也能研究自己的计划;院校与学科资料、专业及STEM查询、选校研究、院校对比、截止日历、申请时间线、费用计算、GPA换算与DIY申请指南,由此被放在同一处。从寻找学校,到比较课程与城市,再到安排费用、时间和申请材料,一个出国的愿望可以逐渐变成有依据、能检查、可以自己掌握进度的行动。

Admissions agencies promote university connections, expertise, and success stories, while applicants need answers to researchable questions: which programs fit, what published figures measure, how costs are calculated, and where requirements and deadlines can be checked. When this material is presented as an agency’s exclusive advantage, families struggle to examine a recommendation’s grounds or see which alternatives they could compare themselves.

I created LIA to make the necessary information and tools freely available without first buying advice. School and subject records, program and STEM searches, college research and comparisons, deadline calendars, timelines, cost and GPA calculators, and DIY guides belong together, helping an ambition become a plan whose evidence, costs, timing, and preparation applicants can investigate and manage.

第 三 章 。留学。CHAPTER 3 · Education续CONTINUED

把选择所需的研究条件,交还给准备出发的人。Put the means of research in the applicant’s hands.

我帮助过数百名学生进入美国本科与研究生项目,其中不少获得顶尖院校录取;具体的申请工作使我更清楚,一份资料能否支持选择,取决于它的年份、口径、校方出处与尚未回答的问题。因此,录取率对应哪一年度、费用包含什么、条件是否仍有效,都应当尽可能交代,并使错误有机会被发现与更正;使用者也应区分已公布的事实、推导所得的结果与仍待核实的缺口,沿着来源继续研究,而不在一个看似精确的数字前停止追问。

在哥伦比亚大学学习古典学与新闻的经历,使我持续关心教育怎样改变一个人认识世界的方式,也关心一种选择能否被本人充分理解;做留学情报局,是把这份关切落实为人人可用的研究条件。学校的名字只是决定的一部分,课程、环境、成本与未来生活怎样相互配合,仍须回到准备出发的人自身;当一个人能够解释为何选择、为此投入什么,又愿意承受怎样的取舍,申请才真正成为他自己人生中的一项决定。

I have helped hundreds of students enter U.S. undergraduate and graduate programs, many admitted to leading institutions; that work sharpened my attention to the year, definitions, institutional source, and unanswered questions behind a figure. Admission rates, cost components, and current requirements should be explained and correctable, with published facts, derived results, and unresolved gaps kept distinguishable, so applicants can continue investigating beyond an apparently precise number.

Studying classics and journalism at Columbia kept me interested in how education changes understanding and whether people can fully explain their choices. LIA turns that concern into resources anyone can use. An institution’s name is one consideration among courses, environment, cost, and future life; an application becomes someone’s own decision when they understand why they are choosing, what they will invest, and which trade-offs they are willing to accept.

让申请者拿得到资料,用得上工具,作得出自己的判断。Information and tools that help applicants reach their own decisions.

第 四 章 。占星。CHAPTER 4 · Astrology

纽约占星学院New York Astrology School

当命理解读停留在宽泛的性格形容、吉凶标签与年度趋势时,它很难继续回答:相近出生时刻的人为何有不同的人生,同一个人的婚姻、事业与内在感受为何呈现不同状态,以及一个判断究竟怎样对应到具体的领域与时间。纽约占星学院的研究与教学,便从这些仍未得到充分解释的问题出发,把分析推进到生时差异、人生结构和事件应期之间更细的联系。

八字、紫微斗数以各自的五行、宫位与星曜关系组织格局判断,流行的心理取向西方占星则较多围绕人格、关系与主观经验展开,而我希望系统研究的,还包括不同人生领域的分盘、行星状态与力量、精神和行为模式,以及多重运程与触发条件的交叉推演;这些分析任务,需要各自明确的工具与前提。一个关于婚姻的判断,与一个关于事件时间的推演,应当能够分别说明所依据的结构,以及它们如何彼此参照。

Broad character descriptions, labels of fortune, and annual trends leave questions about individual lives unresolved: why nearby birth times accompany different experiences, how marriage, work, and inner life can differ within one person, and how an interpretation relates to a particular field and time. New York Astrology School begins with those questions, extending its curriculum into finer distinctions of birth time, life domains, and event timing.

Bazi and Zi Wei Dou Shu organize interpretations through their own patterns and relationships, while popular psychologically oriented Western astrology often centers on personality and subjective experience. My curriculum also studies divisional charts, planetary conditions and strength, patterns of mind and behavior, and the intersection of periods and triggering conditions; different analytical tasks require explicit tools and premises.

第 四 章 。占星。CHAPTER 4 · Astrology续CONTINUED

推演所经历的,也研究怎样去经历。Studying what may be experienced, and how it is lived.

我熟悉占星、八字、紫微斗数、姓名学等个人命运研究与论命体系,也阅读过一千多人的命盘;这些研习与解读的经验,使我更重视体系之间如何比较,以及一个判断的前提能否被追溯。学院以吠陀占星的帕拉夏拉与杰米尼体系为主要教学脉络,将主盘、分盘、行星的状态与互动,连同运程、应期及生时校正,整理成相互衔接的中文课程,让学习者能够回头检查,所用资料、分析结构与结论之间究竟怎样连接。

讨论命运,还必须面对一个人怎样经历命运:觉察、习惯、情绪与行动,怎样参与他对困难的回应,又怎样影响内在的成长;我关于业力、自由意志、意识与无常的文章,由此与占星教学放在一起。古典学、佛学、诗歌与个人经验,为同一个生命提供不同的理解角度,而我希望这些认识最终能够回到生活,使人更清楚地理解自己与他人,并在已经身处其中的处境里,继续承担选择、经营关系和学习成长的责任。

I am closely familiar with astrology, Bazi, Zi Wei Dou Shu, Chinese name analysis, and other traditions concerned with individual fate, and have read the charts of more than a thousand people; that experience makes comparison and traceable premises central to my teaching. The school’s Chinese courses connect Parashara and Jaimini approaches in Vedic astrology with natal and divisional charts, planetary states and relationships, periods, timing, and rectification, so students can examine how data and analytical structures support an interpretation.

An inquiry into fate must also consider how someone experiences it: how awareness, habits, emotions, and action enter a response to difficulty and participate in inner growth. My writing on karma, free will, consciousness, and impermanence therefore belongs beside the technical teaching. Classics, Buddhist thought, poetry, and experience offer different approaches to one life, returning understanding to relationships, choices, and the responsibility of continuing to learn within circumstances already underway.

把人生领域、行为结构与时间推演放在一起研究。Studying life domains, patterns of behavior, and timing together.

第 五 章 。外贸。CHAPTER 5 · Trade

4D Sourcing4D Sourcing

面对中国供应链,海外买家可以很快收到公司介绍、厂区照片、证书与报价,却仍未必知道谁真正生产、文件对应什么主体与产品,质量和产能能够核实到哪一步,以及付款之后由谁履行承诺;最重要的交易条件,常常散落在不同企业、技术资料和沟通记录之间。4D Sourcing要做的,是沿着这些尚未连起来的线索继续研究,把一个看似明确的供应选择,放回它实际依赖的事实与条件之中。

我的主要投入是中国化工供应商的发现、筛选、深入寻源与尽职调查:核对企业与生产关系,研究技术文件、质量、产能、合规及风险资料,整理证书与报价所能支持的判断,并说明仍待确认的部分;供应商自己的陈述、第三方材料与已经得到核实的内容,应当有清楚的区分。价格固然影响决定,但一个推荐为何成立、有哪些取舍,又在什么条件下需要重新考虑,也必须能够说得出来。

An overseas buyer can quickly receive a presentation, factory photographs, certificates, and a quotation, yet remain unsure who manufactures, which entity and product the documents concern, what can be verified, and who performs after payment. Essential conditions are scattered across companies, technical material, and correspondence. 4D Sourcing follows those unfinished connections, examining the facts and assumptions beneath an apparently straightforward supplier choice.

My principal focus is discovering, screening, and researching Chinese chemical suppliers through production relationships, technical documents, quality, capacity, compliance, and risk. Supplier statements, third-party material, and verified findings should remain distinguishable, with open questions identified. Price matters, but research must also explain why a recommendation holds, what trade-offs it involves, and which conditions could require reconsideration.

第 五 章 。外贸。CHAPTER 5 · Trade续CONTINUED

一份研究的分量,落在别人据此作出的承诺里。Research carries the weight of the commitments made from it.

这套工作还延伸到更广泛的产品寻源与实现,从需求说明、成本假设、供应商与付款路径,一直推进到样品确认、生产条件、检验与交付;一个想法只有逐步被转写成可以核对的要求,落实到具体的责任与记录,才有机会越过介绍与承诺,进入真正的执行。样品与约定是否一致,成本依赖哪些前提,每个环节由谁承担,又应在什么时间确认,都需要在资金和货物移动之前尽可能说清。

新闻训练留下的追问习惯,在这里关系到别人如何安排资金、接受风险并作出承诺;同样一份材料,写得完整与否、区分得清楚与否,可能改变一个人对整个交易的理解。我把商业研究看成一项必须交代依据的工作,因为当别人据此作出选择时,研究者的准确、坦诚与对未知的分寸,就已经成为实际责任的一部分;而我希望做得更深的,也正是从信息到判断,再到履行之间的这段距离。

The work extends to wider product sourcing and realization, connecting specifications, cost assumptions, suppliers, and payment routes with samples, production, inspection, and delivery. An idea becomes executable as requirements, responsibilities, and records become concrete: whether samples meet the agreement, what assumptions determine cost, who performs each task, and when confirmation is needed should be addressed before money and goods move.

Journalism’s questioning habit now informs decisions about other people’s funds, risks, and commitments; the completeness and clarity of a report can change how someone understands an entire transaction. I regard commercial research as work that must account for its grounds, because accuracy, candor, and proportion about the unknown become practical responsibilities when others rely on the result. The distance from information through judgment to performance is where I want to work more deeply.

供应商、产品与交易条件,都要经得起进一步追问。The supplier, the product, and the terms all need a closer look.

第 六 章 。法律。CHAPTER 6 · Law

法学院.律所Law school · Law office

一个人受到伤害之后,如果因为语言、费用、时效或程序而始终找不到愿意接手的律师,法律所承诺的权利,与他实际能够获得的救济之间,便出现了一道需要有人认真面对的距离;再完整的规则,也需要有人读懂经历、核对文件,辨认哪些事实尚未被说明,哪些途径仍值得研究。我走向法律,始于这样的具体求助,也始于一个不断返回的问题:当一件事情被认为已经无路可走时,这个判断究竟建立在怎样的事实与前提上。

在陪父母前往长者活动中心时,一些不熟悉英语的长者与新移民,请我帮助阅读信件、打电话并与机构沟通;随着接触的材料增多,我也在他们自行诉讼的过程中,协助核对事实、检索资料与整理文书。涉及医疗伤害、执法争议和移民事务的求助,使我反复面对时效、豁免与程序带来的困难,并继续追问是否还有未被充分审视的事实、不同的请求依据,或需要重新理解的条件;这些经历也成为我申请法学院时写入个人陈述的重要内容。

When language, cost, limitation periods, or procedure prevent an injured person from finding a lawyer, a distance opens between a promised right and an available remedy. Rules still need someone to understand the account, check documents, and identify facts and avenues deserving further research. My path toward law began with concrete requests for help and a recurring question: on what facts and assumptions does a conclusion that nothing more can be done depend?

At the senior center I visited with my parents, older people and immigrants unfamiliar with English asked me to read letters, make calls, and communicate with institutions. I later assisted people representing themselves with facts, research, and documents. Requests involving medical injuries, official conduct, and immigration raised questions about limitations, immunity, unexamined facts, possible claims, and procedural conditions; these experiences became part of my law-school personal statement.

第 六 章 。法律。CHAPTER 6 · Law续CONTINUED

让一份求助,成为经得起检验的主张。Give a request for help the grounds of an examinable claim.

父亲从小同我谈民主与法治,年少时因公共表达而失去自由的经历,又使我对权利的关切始终连着一个人面对权力与制度时,能否保有尊严、得到回应并获得实际帮助的现实;一个抽象的原则,最终要经过具体的人才能显出它的分量。在新闻与公共事务中,我努力使问题进入讨论,而法律要求我进一步把事实、证据、规则与程序接在一起,使关切能够被转写成有依据、可以检验,也能够面对反驳的主张。

如今读到法学院三年级,我带着这些在现实中遇到的问题,继续深化法律研究、诉讼分析与写作训练,为完成学业、取得执业资格后的法律工作作准备;我要求自己查细事实、讲清规则与风险,并把每一种选择放回求助者的处境中理解,因为一项看似技术性的判断,往往关系到一个人接下来怎样安排自己的生活。未来的律所将另有网站,而这里保留这条从公共关切、社区协助走向专业训练的来路,也记下我为何认为,一份法律工作应当对事实、对程序,更对人承担责任。

My father’s discussions of democracy and law, and a loss of liberty connected to public expression when I was young, tied rights to whether a person facing power can retain dignity, receive a response, and obtain practical help. Journalism brought problems into discussion; law asks me to connect facts, evidence, rules, and procedure so that a concern becomes a grounded claim capable of examination and challenge.

Now in my third year of law school, I bring those questions into training in legal research, litigation analysis, and writing, preparing for work after graduation and bar admission. I hold myself to investigating facts, explaining risks, and understanding choices in the circumstances of the person seeking help. A future law office will have its own website; here I retain the path from public concern and community assistance into professional training, and the responsibility I believe legal work owes to facts, procedure, and people.

3L

从现实中的求助出发,把权利落实到事实、证据与程序。Starting with people's requests for help, and working through facts, evidence, and procedure.

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红移
不用深蓝
只比清晨稍多一抹淡淡的蓝

写于特拉华,2018;2022 年发布。Written in Delaware, 2018; published here in 2022.
原文中文ORIGINALLY IN CHINESE

I Dare Because I Care
For I would not dare
if I did not care.

Lingxi Kong,2017 年 7 月 15 日,特拉华。Lingxi Kong · July 15, 2017 · Delaware.
ORIGINALLY IN ENGLISH

Two coffees tonight cost two bucks

2006 年,拉丁语期末前两天,写给同学的英文打油诗。关于李维、《埃涅阿斯纪》和那些名词的格。A comic poem for a classmate, two days before a Latin final in 2006. Livy, the Aeneid, and all those noun cases.
ORIGINALLY IN ENGLISH

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